Peek-a-boo!

It has certainly been a while since I have written any new posts. Life has gotten in the way. Most of it is just an excuse and less of it is laziness. I am glad that I did not break the habit out of laziness.

So, what post have I got up my sleeve this time? What new tricks have I learnt? Or rather skills?

Not learnt anything new. In fact, not even read any books. I started listening to “The beekeeper of Aleppo” on audible. I got quite a few books to go through. I took a break from nearly everything. Perhaps to reset, find balance once more. I am obsessed with balance because most of my life has been a seesaw, an emotional one, a challenging one, the one that constantly shifts weight one either extremes. This being the reason why I am continually trying to find balance when I find myself fortunately and many a times unfortunately, on one of the extreme ends.

Writing everything down helps me find mental clarity. Like talking to a therapist helps me find clarity of thoughts.

I wrote while I watch the sun set. I am glad that aside all other disruptions and obstacles, I have continued to stay connected to nature. If anything the change of environment has been helpful. It has helped me appreciate blessings, appreciate friends who I keep in touch with and with whom I have not been in contact for a while. It has helped me to be grateful that life still haa many opportunities to offer.

Do I sound like a glass half full kind of person right now? While I am most certainly quite optimistic, I am aware of the reality of things surrounding me.

We make things difficult and complicated for ourselves. All the complexities, they stem from me. I guess that means I am still in the process of figuring things out. I still have a lot to learn, I still have a lot of wisdom to gain. Perhaps, when I am wiser, I can say that life is simple.

Where are you in your life right now? Do you see it as simple? Or do you see it life as complex? Do you challenge yourself to new goals? Or do you seek comfort in the monotonous routine?

5 Tips to Revert Back To Being The Old You

Currently I am going through a deep process of rewiring my subconscious and unconscious minds. Think of this process as slowly learning to shed old shell and growing a new one. Or imagine how a caterpillar evolves into a butterfly. Or just imagine how Pikachu evolves to Raichu, not that I am a Pokemon. The mind is limitless, the vastness of our minds allow us to improve continually and seek out discomfort for accelerated learning.

On the contrary our minds; the subconscious and unconscious selves, are also resistant to change. This resistance can halt the process of evolution and growth and seek comfort where there is psychological safety. Where there is a safe space, where there are accepted and embedded beliefs, actions and thought patterns.

If you want easy tips to revert back to being your old self, just follow these 5 simple tips:

1. Sleep excessively

2. Stop exercising

3. Get lazy and stop looking after your mind and body.

4. Ignore your spiritual needs. Stop meditating

5. All of above will grow your doubts enough that you abandon going after your latent potential.

This is a message for myself first. In the past couple of weeks I have stopped exercising, stopped stretching, stopped running. I have been oversleeping. I have a poor sleep pattern. I have poor discipline and eating habits. If I stay any longer this way, I will be sure to revert back to being the old me. But wait, I am trying to think now what that old self was like? Does this imply I am close to turning into a butterfly? That said, there are periods when I am lazy and unproductive.

Hope is something you give yourself in the darkest times. Balance

Sometimes it’s through these slumps and picking myself back up from them that helps me accept that there will be more periods where I may not want to write, may not want to exercise, may not want to meditate.

Instead of going down the rabbit hole of asking myself, Why am I like this during these periods? I should start asking myself, how can I do a little better tomorrow? How can I create a new idea for a blog post? How can I refuel my energy to exercise and meditate?

By asking How? I can then think of What action I can take?

Humans are complex creatures. We make all the easy things difficult for ourselves. We continue to seek out motivation, we continue to seek out the reasons why? The Why can be the reason for doing or not doing, it can be the reason for the cause effect relation, it can be the reason for seeking certainty amidst uncertainty. If we can learn to embrace the uncertainty, we can rid ourselves of The Why and learn to be in the present and seek out The How and The What?

A light bulb 💡 moment. I don’t do this enough. I am going to find things that I am grateful for, look back see the progress so far, look back and see what % of the time I have been sticking to the process. Look back and see % of errors. Be grateful for the progress and process and continue to refine it. Most of all be grateful. If anything the only thing I have really stopped doing in the past 2 months is writing down things that I am grateful for. Got to get back on track. Life is a blessing when you can find gratitude in your heart and in the blessings surrounding you.

Beauty and Love Inspired 2021

مگشا در اندیشه و برگیر رباب
صدگونه نماز است و رکوعست و سجود
آنرا که جمال دوست باشد


Let the beauty of what you love

Be what you do,
There are hundreds of ways to kneel and kiss the earth.

میں اکیلا ہی چلا تھا جانب منزل مگر

لوگ ساتھ آتے گئے اور کارواں بنتا گیا


I set upon the journey all alone but,

People joined along the way and it became a caravan

کیسے کہوں میں دل کےفرماں

الفاظ بن نہ سکے جو تھے چھپے ارماں


How can I tell you the secrets of the heart?

Those hidden desires could not be translated to words

واقف جو ہے سینے سے میرے

جانتا ہے وہ دل کی دھڑکن کو تیرے


The one who knows these hidden secrets,
He knows your beating heart too,

کیوں کرتا  ہے تکبر اتنا

چلتا ہے تو اکڑا کر جتنا

Why have you such pride?
Why walk conceitedly?

پہاڑ بھی نہیں تیرے ھم قد

نا ہی چھو سکتا ہے آسمان کو تو

Neither are you as tall as mountains, nor can you touch the sky

ذرا غور کر اعمال پر اپنے

اعتراف بھی، اعتراض بھی

Ponder over your actions
Accept some, reject some

کس منزل پر چلا ہے تو

کیا ممکن بنانے چلا ہے تو

Where do you plan to go?
What impossible are you trying to make possible?

اس زندگی کے موڑ پر چٹان ھیں، اور دریا بھی

گزر گئے ہیں جو مکاں، وقت کی رفتار میں

In life’s journey, every turn you will either face a mountain or a river
The moments that have been lost in time,

توجہ دلانے کا سبق اٹھا

تنظیم کا پرچم لہرا

Learn to focus your attention ahead,
Waving the flag of discipline

خودی  کو کر بلند اتنا

کے ہر تقدیر سے پہلے

خدا بندے سے پوچھے

بتا، تیری رضا کیا ہے

Raise yourself to a rank, that before every distribution of fortune
God asks of you,
Tell me what you desire!



Obviously I started with Rumi and ended with Iqbal. The thoughts are really based on some poems I read long ago.


Here’s to a new year… 2021 starting it differently; beauty and love and not a Bang 2020 😉 yeah that didn’t go well last year did it haha

Every day is a new day. You can start all over again from today and when you decide to start again.