Been a while…

I remembered to come back here because I  spoke about it (The Blog) to someone earlier. It sent me a reminder that I write.

There’s a lot going on in life at the moment, so I have not been as consistent on here. Rest assured, life is moving forwards in a good direction. I can never say that I control the helm, however, the wind is currently favourable.

So much has happened and I am excited! Looking forward to do a list of things that have been in my bucket list. Go a bit crazy haha…despite a gloomy global outlook. One that is worrisome! Of course, the threat of nuclear war is a big worry. But I don’t know whether it’s going to happen or not, just like the uncertainty that I have dealt with most of my life.

Oh, that made me worry! It caused a lot of stress, stress that turned chronic. I was holding on to so much, not knowing how to let go.

Fortunately, there were many blessings along the hardships and many lessons learnt from the hardships. I wish I could say that I am wiser but I cannot. The most I can say perhaps is that, I am wiser compared to who I was. I am content and happy knowing this. After all, this is all I preach right!

Strive to be better than who you were yesterday!

Been a while… but I am grateful for the many blessings. It’s been a while… I am kind of mulling over what I should write about.

I know I said that I would write about geopolitics if things turned sour for Nord Stream 2 (NS2) and other causes of energy security concerns. The topic is too political and contentious for my liking at the moment. Maybe I will post facts regarding energy security concerns and the transition to renewables.

Or maybe I should just write out what I think because this blog has mostly been  a place for me to dump my thoughts.

You see time doesn’t stop for anyone. I speak from the perspective of time in this blog (https://macropassions.wordpress.com/2021/09/08/thoughts-about-running/https://macropassions.wordpress.com/2021/09/08/thoughts-about-running/ Thoughts about running! A Timeless Story)

Time is limited for us in this world. The conditions today are such that the variance is high, some have more time on earth than others because of wars. Others have more free time, and most are enslaved, tied down that they fail to even realise that they are never free.

Freedom! A word that can mean different things to different people. Free speech, freedom to live how you want to, freedom to travel, freedom to choose between right and wrong. The list goes on and on….

Definitely been a while… I am back to being my usual self, spontaneous, jumping from thought to thought. I prefer this way of blurting out my mind. Often quietly, turning thoughts into words on here. Like waving a wand and writing out what I want.

Writing is a form of Meditation for me. It’s a form of therapy. It helps me shed my thoughts to calm my mind. Then when I take a deep breath, I find that I am here in the now, in this moment, in the present moment.

A final reminder: We don’t rise to the level of our expectations, we fall to the level of our training.

Knowing this helps me remain humble and adopt a mindset of a student. Taking it step at a time. Although I have bad habits of trying to get ahead of myself, but having a process and holding myself accountable can minimise those bad habits.

Progress and Action

My 2 good habits that I have managed to be consistent with, since the lockdown started are: Meditation and  Exercise.

I started by doing 20 push-ups a day and meditating every morning. Since last summer, I had been very inconsistent with practising martial arts or doing exercise. Perhaps going to counselling and showing up for the sessions kept me weighed down. During the whole process, I was listening to audiobooks, podcasts and watching YT videos as an escape. Escape because, my time was mostly filled by listening to fictional novels from some of my favourite authors. With the start of 2020 and having finished with counselling sessions, I wanted to re-implement some of the good habits that have stuck with me throughout difficult times. The two being meditation and exercise! It’s always these two that help me find balance and reorganise my mind.

This Spring with lockdown in place I tried a new combination of meditation followed by exercise for 90 days… I skipped a few days here and there. Skipped either am or pm session. It didn’t go as I planned, however, I managed to develop these habits back into my daily routine with greater consistency. I was meant to update my daily log of accountability but I really found that a chore lol. Still I started by doing 20 push-ups right after a meditation session. Usually I like meditating after an intense workout and emptying my mind and just sitting with myself observing and enhancing the focus and emptiness… this time, I was meditating first and to reward myself (the brain) I was doing push-ups. The idea being that my brain needs dopamine and endorphins released to feel pleasure and for the habit to stick. I can say that it worked really well. I also went from doing 20 push-ups to 50 push-ups. Then changed it up to 100 push-ups a day (5 sets × 20 reps).  Now, I have brought another slight change and started to lift weights too. The day I don’t lift weights, I do 100 push-ups. The other days I lift. I still maintain my focus on core strength and flexibility because I want to keep my taekwondo skills up to par.

Why am I sharing this? I can keep carrying on quietly and do what I am doing. My reasons for sharing are simple, everyone goes through different life challenges. You never know what others may find inspirational. I am not really going to post pictures up lol because I hardly take pictures. I don’t have a habit of taking selfies or pictures. So sadly, I don’t have the skinny me before and some after gains haha… The idea behind sharing this is that, you can start no matter your level, start with habits that you want to develop and stick with them, challenge yourself, hold yourself accountable through social media posts or through a friend. Become consistent, do a little bit everyday, rather than not doing anything at all.

Personally for me, consistency matters a lot. If I am able to stay consistent with my habits… hopefully it filters through to other aspects of life too and become consistent with everything I want to do and plan to do. Focussing on the process, not the outcome. The next steps for me are filling in the daily report card with consistency. To see what I am referring to check out these previous posts:

http://macropassions.com/2020/04/05/how-to-motivate-yourself-to-sustain-your-productivity/

http://macropassions.com/2020/02/29/leap-progress-process/

I want this progress and action to filter into my process and auction too.

Until next time,

Put in those reps