Learning and Planning

Planning ahead….due to sudden shifts, new phase of life had begun. Planning ahead… not really! Just going with the flow. I know that I cannot control time and most things are outside my control.

However, despite that I can still plan ahead in small ways. Looking forward to starting new adventures. It may take me some time to get there but that’s what I am planning for. Riding motorbikes for me is thrilling and adventurous. So, the first adventure that I am planning on is setting out on a motorbike tour.

Why am I sharing it? When I  am not even close to it yet? Do I believe in law of attraction? Write down your goals and recite them before sleeping each night and as you wake up every morning. They shall soon come to pass!

Not really!

I do know that goals written down have much more meaning and for some reason I am a little more determined to fulfill them.

Just like my endless thirst for seeking out knowledge. I write down goals and work towards them. But let me tell you, I have encountered more failures so far than successes. You may wonder what those might be, as an example, learning languages for me is exciting, stimulating and fun. Yet, I am still a beginner after many years spending time to learn German, Persian and Arabic. The truth is my effort has never been deliberate and focused enough to learn one of them and get good at it. Yet I am fascinated by people when I hear different languages. If I could fluently speak in a different language, the conversations could help me explore different cultures and ideas too.

There are so many things that I would like to learn but if prioritise them appropriately, the skills and knowledge gained will be of future benefit both in building career and life. My current focus is building on these valuable skills while keeping up with other hobbies at a minimum to remain consistent and not losing those skills. 5 mins of German a day, 5 mins of Arabic a day. Persian??? I will go back to it when I start reading Rumi and Iqbal again.

I have been neglecting the practice of martial arts. I have been hiking a lot lately, but not enough exercise and sweat doing that on its own. Yesterday, I ran, the plan was to jog 4 miles. I only managed to jog 2 miles, and even that alternating between jogging and walking each mile. It’s easy to lose skills too if they are not kept honed. Martial arts may be one example, excel or a programming language maybe another.

The point is, it is important to make time to sharpen one’s skills and keep up with them. Martial arts and teaching it is part of that planning ahead. So, while I wait on things to materialise, I got to keep practising so my movements remain fluent.

I have never walked a linear path. If I were a molecule in a beaker full of liquid. The brownian motion would pretty much describe my path so far, despite such haphazard path, I am still contained in a beaker so I am able to maintain my goals in sight. Maybe not the best way to describe it but this is how I have been able to keep sight of my goals. If I were to lose myself in an ocean, I might just lose myself. The ocean is vast, full of sharks and creatures of the deep sea. Navigating through all of that might be even tougher, but I believe planning, practice, and sticking to my game plan will be crucial when it’s finally time to immerse my being in the depths of oceans.

I am going to stop the rambling now, it’s been a a whole month since I last wrote anything on here. It feels even longer. It’s not that I don’t enjoy writing, I just have to get better at managing my time. This weekend it has all been about creating a routine that will help me be more productive and writing it down so I can start following it.

Paradox of Duality

Life & Death!

Love & Hate!

Fire & Ice!

Night & Day!

Light & Darkness!

Bliss & Suffering!

Pain & Pleasure!

Providence or coincidence? Cause & Effect! Divine Will or Contruct of man’s design!

You reap what you sow- this may be true for a responsible adult, but what about a child born into chaos?

What about the burdens gifted to us by the generations before us?

What about the technology and evolution as our tools?

Personally, I do not believe in coincidences. I believe in the Providence. We are in good hands, only if we keep firm faith. Why be afraid of death, when it is a certainty in life? Why be afraid of losing everything, when what’s promised and Willed cannot be withheld?

Despite this fact, the paradox of duality in my view then, is a question of manifestation. Manifestation of Divine Will, manifestation of the Divine Attributes.

Everything happens for a reason we cannot comprehend in its entirety. Our reason is limited by time, experiences and our imagination. It is limited by our limited knowledge.

The Divinity can keep illuminating even if all the oceans dry up. The man is a mere drop in the oceans.

We all have a purpose in life, what is yours? Hope & Despair, it is through belief in Providence that hope, struggle, suffering are designed to strengthen us.

My thoughts lately have been reduced. Reduced perhaps because of clarity, reduced perhaps due to my lack of reading and listening. It may be both!

No soul is burdened beyond what it can bear. The greater the test in life, the greater the suffering and trials, the greater the chance that a dancing star can emerge. The chaos within will come to cessation. The air above will get lighter, the summit is reached and reward is gained. The scenic beauty and proclamation of success & happiness. There are many paths that lead to the top of the mountain. You have the tools to forge forth.

Paths we walk

While walking along the river bank earlier, a thought occurred to me. Not the first time I have thought about it, but still reflecting again in that moment provided a good analogy.

Just like how the path along the river is meandering, so too does the path we walk in our lives. Our sights are restricted, we can’t see beyond the next bend. The view ahead is revealed as we walk forward.

Most of the times, we don’t know what lies ahead. Just like walking along the river bank, in life too, there are known unknowns & unknown unknowns.