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Another post- reflections

It seems like it’s been ages since my last post.

Saying that I am an unfinished product or a work in progress is an understatement.

On the contrary, every time I lose focus; I lose my bearings. Finding my compass each time gets easier but the obstacles still linger. Those pesky things are ready to come at me at all moments. If I leave myself unchecked and unaccountable, I deviate from my rules based approach or principles that allow me to stick the process.

However, each time I can feel that I am nearing towards removing the froth and learning to hold gems in this continuous space for self-development and self-discovery. This is despite the fact that I have made big mistakes.

As humans there are so many biases built in us, it’s very difficult to sometimes stay objective and be  present. These pesky biases and our own ego and unconscious mind work against us. It is like a ceiling that always has room to go one level up every time you get near it or pierce through it.

A lot of what I write is like a constant stream of thoughts just put forward in a new way or through a different perspective. Like most of what I wrote above I can recall discussing similar ideas in my previous blogs. Cup of Knowledge and Secrets of Self.

I have never mentioned the perspective that I take on the sources of thoughts. I have written about it elsewhere but not here. I take a traditional look at the sources of thoughts. Psychology also has a similar way of putting it together.

In my belief, thoughts that we have stem from our mind, the heart, the soul and our nafs (ego). Understanding which thoughts stem from where is useful knowledge and a great struggle too. It helps unlearn the unconscious behaviours, habits and beliefs we hold. It also helps understand what actions we should take to ensure growth and progress. Being aware of the thoughts in real time is extremely hard. In retrospect however, a lot can broken down in smaller digestible bitesized information.

To put this in context or through way of an example, I want to understand why is it that I am relapsing from my compounding habits that have provided me a solid framework. Meditation, exercise and martial arts. These 3 habits have helped me the most to build up skills such as patience, discipline, grit, perseverance.

There are patterns to be observed in the universe. The northern hemisphere, the southern hemisphere night skies. The zodiac belt. Similarly, most of our lives can be seen as a pattern of repeating things occurring over and over again. I am in this moment trying to get an objective view of the last couple of years and limiting factors and beliefs that break this pattern down each time it trends up.

Less is more. This one principle can help me recognise these limiting factors and beliefs before they sabotage me.

This post has been laying in my drafts since Sunday. Consistency can sometimes be a struggle in writing too.

To put things simply… there is an emotional imbalance.

Another key principle that has helped me simplify things is and helped me stay in reality is, “You don’t rise to the level of your goals, you fall to the level of your systems.” James Clear

In addition, this has also helped me adopt a minimalist mindset.

Books worth visiting again

The physical heart, which houses the spiritual heart, beats about 100,000 times a day, pumping two gallons of blood per minute and over 100 gallons per hour. If one were to attempt to carry 100 gallons of water (whose density is lighter than blood) from one place to another, it would be an exhausting task. Yet the human heart does this every hour of every day for an entire lifetime without respite. The vascular system transporting life-giving blood is over 60,000 miles long – more than two times the circumference of the earth. So when we conceive of our blood being pumped throughout our bodies, know that this means that it travels through 60,000 miles of a closed vascular system that connects all the parts of the body – all the vital organs and living tissues – to this incredible heart.- Purification of the heart Translated by Hamza Yusuf.

Have you ever tried carrying 2 packs of water crates (6 × 2L) from the shop to your house? One pack in each hand? That’s not even close to 100 gallons of water and yet the human heart pumps ~ 2880 litres of blood 24/7 as long as there is life and soul in us. Isn’t this more than a miracle?

Anyhow I just found this fact about the heart amazing. The modern science has also gathered evidence that heart has its own neurons capable of feelings and perhaps thoughts. Ancient Chinese tradition and Judaism, Christianity and Islam all pay special attention to the state of one’s heart.

I have previously talked quite a lot about spiritual heart. I am reading this book again and this time I would like to share things I learn. This will help me perhaps better remember them.

Humans by nature are forgetful. We forget what we learn. Humans by nature are an ocean of emotions. Not all emotions we express are helpful in our pursuits. Reading this book before helped me tame my anger outbursts with the help of continuing practice of martial arts.

I am at that stage once more where I am falling back into my old self. Impulses and urges are over powering and over riding my rational self. For example losing my temper to someone who is screaming at me when I know they are just reflecting their own insecurities and low self-esteem. My retaliation brings me down to that same level.

In other pursuits not being able to exercise patience and just sitting on my hands has been proving difficult lately. I have disregarded my set of rules and principles. I have broken them only to slide down the ladder. It’s feels like I fell off the mountain that I was climbing. Funny how my subconscious and unconscious minds warned me of this beforehand.

Well at least, I am back to being my spontaneous self again. Blogging really helps put out all thoughts flowing through my mind. Although I may not always put them exactly how they are in my mind. That’s my introverted nature. Still when I read I am able to tell what exactly was on my mind. I was talking about dreams when referring to the unconscious and subconscious minds.

Anyway…. I can keep blabbering and I will forget why I started writing this blog.

I started writing it to explore the different diseases that plague the spiritual heart. This pursuit of cleansing one’s heart is an every day work. Complacency and laziness will put you back where you started. There is no finish line. It’s a constant work in progress. Or maybe I am saying that because my heart is not pure or maybe even if it was… it wouldn’t make sense if I were to say that about myself. No one knows what’s in the hearts except God.

I can only continue to work to polish it and if I fall off track, I have to pick myself back up. Get back on track…

Follow the light. Light guides and darkness leaves you wandering.

So here are the few common ailments of spiritual heart that I’d personally like to reflect on and in doing so hopefully remove these blemishes from my heart and self. Removing any of these blemishes is a difficult task. What I learnt from the book is that, protection from these blemishes is more powerful. Heavenly protection… I will still struggle enough so that perhaps, through Mercy some divine protection comes my way too.

Negative thoughts– the critic in my head. The little voice- doubt, fear and anxiety.

Anger– losing my composure and calmness for any reason

Heedlessness– not acting upon learnt knowledge. It can be applied to all fields. If you acquire some expertise or skills in any arts, it becomes imperative that you practise it diligently with focused attention. Otherwise you fall into heedlessness.

Boasting & Arrogance– I don’t think that I have these traits but you can never dismiss stuff like this because that’s exactly when it creeps back in. And even maybe if I didn’t write about it, that might have been boasting and arrogance in itself.

Obliviousness to Blessings– Being ungrateful. Gratitude is a must… there is always more to be grateful for in life. A lot of the times I forget to do it.

Envy, Rancour, Hatred- I am putting all these together because their roots are same. One amplifies the other and they feed off of each other. It’s easy to possess these traits. Just start comparing your life to others on Instagram and Facebook lol 😆 You will surely feel one of those at least. Or read the comment section on political posts 🤣

There are many other symptoms and ailments detailed in the book that plague the heart. I am going to work on these few and take time to reflect. Work on my habits and whether those habits help me with these goals.

Get back into deep meditation that should surely help. Help cleanse the heart and help live in the present moment.

No Pain, No Gain

Pain is the best teacher but no one wants to go to his class- Choi Hong Hi.

I came across this quote when I first started looking for martial arts clubs. I was trying to find a club where I could learn skills and improve every day. I wanted to go to the class and face the pain.

So here’s a collection of more Pain Quotes:

1. No Pain, No Gain-Old Proverb

2. Sometimes You Must Hurt In Order To Know, Fall In Order To Grow, Lose In Order To Gain, Because Life’s Greatest Lessons Are Learned Through Pain.- Pain (Naruto)

3.Do You Understand Pain A Little Now? If You Don’t Share Someone’s Pain, You Can Never Understand Them- Pain (Naruto)

4. Bad things do happen; how I respond to them defines my character and the quality of my life. I can choose to sit in perpetual sadness, immobilized by the gravity of my loss, or I can choose to rise from the pain and treasure the most precious gift I have – life itself. Walter Anderson

5. Don’t get lost in your pain, know that one day your pain will become your cure. Rumi

6. After the rain, the sun will reappear. There is life. After the pain, the joy will still be here. Walt Disney

7. It is easier to find men who will volunteer to die, than to find those who are willing to endure pain with patience. Julius Caesar

8. To truly laugh, you must be able to take your pain, and play with it! Charlie Chaplin

9. True compassion means not only feeling another’s pain but also being moved to help relieve it. Daniel Goleman

And…. here’s one from me. It’s more a belief… which keeps me at it, and gets me going.

10. No soul is burdened beyond what it can bear. No Pain is greater than your ability to overcome it.